Hi all, when I graduated high school I had no idea what I wanted to do. I honestly just wanted to get a steady job, but found that in Michigan in 2004 this was not so easy. My family is fairly educated but has never had much money, and I had no idea how the US college system worked or what to expect (I grew up overseas). I had zero sense of the expenses, how to game the system, what the cost of living would be like, and had never had the opportunity to hold a paying job in HS.
Without a lot of information or preparation to go on, I applied for winter admission to a few small liberal arts colleges, and ended up at one with a steep tuition but good quality programs. But, you know, liberal arts, and the 2007-08 Recession, and all that.
Graduated with about $80-90k in loan debt, lucky enough to get a job, but no room for advancement. Gave it a while and then tried to switch jobs, and that escape plan collapsed. Moved to Seattle to find work, found work, lost work, found work… lost work again in 2013. Debt payments the whole time averaged like $600 a month even though the original lenders (Chase and MHESLA) had gotten out of any further obligations by selling my debt off. Familiar story for a lot of us by now, I think.
Truth is, I made some mistakes along the way, but those mistakes were only serious because of the situation I was already in. During phases of unemployment, looking for jobs, I sometimes had to pay for essentials using credit, so my credit card debt started piling up, too. Due to the mounting stress and despair, I also developed a reliance on alcohol for a while, which didn’t help the cost of living. (I’m a lot better now, FYI.)
Applied to grad school, started in 2015. Thought I could snag some ‘skilled’ work on the side, but this was a wild goose chase. When things got desperate, I got a part-time Starbucks gig for way less earnings than my existing skills/exp could potentially earn - another familiar story for us Recession and post-Recession folks. Started having frequent panic attacks, booze problems came back, etc. After graduation, began to stabilize with some easy temp work in town, but needed to find jobs relevant to my MA. Moved to the hellswamp (DC) to do that, and have been struggling ever since.
My private debt is in the range of $70-80k and I think my federal loans are somewhere around $80k despite breaking my back (or pounding the pavement) for about a decade to get ahead of it all. I realized the grave futility of it all and finally gave up on repaying those debts this past year. I have no idea what will come next. I’m short on rent as we speak, and even though a good job always seems to be right around the corner, it’s been 1.5 years since I moved to DC and that good job has yet to actually materialize.